I’m Feeling Hopeless. What Do I Do?
Question by You Don’t Know Me!: I’m feeling hopeless. What do I do?
I want to become a professor of psychology some day and I used to be interested in research and had questions and like creating experiments. I just graduated with a BA/MA in psychology and I’m taking a break from school because I’m burned out. I have bipolar disorder and, although I did really well in school and graduated with a great GPA and an impressive research CV, I got by with the skin of my teeth. I don’t know how I got out in five years– at one time I was even hospitalized.
I’m currently an adjunct and a teacher’s assistant at my school. I’m also supposed to be a project manager, but, because of this insane anxiety, I can’t bring myself to do any work on the project.
Although I am dragging myself through the classes I am teaching and doing as much as I can to be there for my students, I’m not getting any of my own research done. I’ve gone MIA with my adviser and I’m sure he hates me. This is happening to me again; everything is causing me such crippling anxiety. The anxiety that I’m so stupid that I’m not financially stable, the anxiety that because of my inability to perform right now I’m putting my future career in jeopardy, the anxiety that I’m not cut out for my chosen field, etc. I’m going insane. I can’t do anything but stare at a wall. I can’t do this anymore. I feel like there is no way out and I’m trapped. I’m so exhausted and I’m so sick of this s*it. The anxiety I feel everyday is unbearable. I think about suicide every day.
On top of this, I’m living with my parents because I cannot move out on my salary. To make things worse, my dad is delusional and takes it out on my mother and my mom depends on me for emotional support. I’m breaking. Living at home is like walking on egg shells.
What do I do?
I also cost my parents about $ 1000 on medical costs (therapy+ medication). I am thinking about ending it because I am such a financial burden on my parents.
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Answer by YahooDeana
Are you still on meds?
They can make one worse with mood swings plus interfere with sleep and thus starts the vicious cycle of feeling worse.
So if you’re on drugs, get off of them.
You are so lucky to have a job, a degree and your future ahead of you.
There are many jobs in your field that could take you to another state or city. If you can’t find one on your own, get a headhunter. good luck `~
Answer by Bonni
First off… You graduated!! That’s amazing! I went through hell in my college years (dad in rehab for cocaine and mom serious alcoholic) and ended up giving up. I thought about suicide daily and have deep scars on my arms bc of it. I hated myself and that I couldn’t take care of my family. I went through debilitating anxiety and just wanted to die. Somehow I made it through. And now I think about all the things I would have missed out on! We cannot control what our families do. We cannot control where the past has placed us. But we can control our next step! Instead of giving in to our sickening anxiety we can say eff off… I’m going to feel normal today! I won’t care what any thinks… I will be at peace today! Eff you anxiety. You have so much potential. Do things that make you feel good and happy… And in turn that will be felt by your fam
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